Shittiest day of my life

One of the most shittiest days of my life has just passed. I'm broke and creep on these days. Everything seems like bullshit. All the things you said running through head... 

Two years ago, it started. Two years later, it seems like finishing. Even now, I can't believe that this was happened. I don't want to finish. But why you want to end it? 

No woman - No Cry. Meaning is not like Marley's one. Love is a killer. Today, I'm becoming older and loser. 50/2. What have I done in the past? Nothing. All this life is meaningless. No discipline, no hope and no life. May be, it's better or worse. Nothings box. You just know Nothing Box. I was like Merso. But you were stranger than him. Like you say, you are the ultimate stranger. Because, you're weirdo creature. Then you don't understand my nothing box. It's illogical.  

These days, suicide thoughts are always on my mind. Though, how can I do? First, Mommy comes to my mind, then my son. But why? 

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements? Actually, I don't know for know. I can't make absolute decision.

No, no, no, nooooooooooo.........

I thought, you were Woman like Man in Me. But you... How could you behave like that?

May be, you're wrong. Your thoughts can be fake. Just illusion of you wrong attitude. But the reality is different.

I regret. Fuck that CinemAurum!

 

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further

This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?